I'm feeling kinda like, depressed again. Don't really wanna say why but I know that boys are fucking bastards. I just wanna curl up in bed and stay there forever. I wanna curl up and die so I dont have to face the earth. I can feel a weight, and its really heavy upon me. Its harder to lift than I can imagine, and it hurts when I try and fix it. I can hear white noise in my head and I want the pain to stop. I have the knotted stomach sick feeling to be honest...