Just a little story about nothing really, I kinda have to explain this to someone so they know why im holding a 'grudge'.
Dear X
When my dad died, I felt lonley and I craved the love and affection of a male person, this wont mean anything to you, as nobody really understands at all. When he died I felt like he betrayed me and that he didnt need me/want me. This made me very upset...I started going out with you, my first real love, you kindof filled the gap of a missing male in my short life. If you understand. Anyways, I loved you, I did really much so, and when you dumped me, without reason this brought everything about my dad flooding back. He died and I didnt know why, you made me feel like a lost child again and I hated you for that. I know you probly didnt know this, I just want you to know that you didnt make me feel very good at all. In fact I used anger to lash out on you, holding so much stress made me ill, im not even sure If I will recover. Having you let me go was like loosing you whole family. You were the only person in my life I cared about, I tried to block out the pain with your love and I feel bad that you had to make my life a living hell. I just hope that nobody else has to go through this pain, your future girlfriends/wife? Please just promise me that you will come out of this a stronger person and put the past behind you, like I have tried to do so many times before. x
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